These days are hard times for me. I had to be hospitalized on December 2013, on January 2014 I had to accept the fact that there is a problem with my liver, and on February 2014 I had to resign from being a Management Trainee in PT Nestle Indonesia due to my father's command (that I need to take a recovery and better for me to seek a job as a state-employee). Well, those are never crossed my mind before.
Now, just imagine my routines back at my home in Palembang: taking medication, limiting myself from several kind of food, exercising a bit, and waiting for confirmation from ESDM about my prospect for being an state-employee (which I don't want to at the very first place, but you know, my father's command cannot be denied or refused).
It is hard for me to stay happy and positive. This evening, I randomly google good quotes, and I found out several that touch my heart a bit.
Who am I to worry about tomorrow? even a billionaire cannot guarantee what will be happened tomorrow. Instead of mourning, I have to cherish the joyful of today.
I remember once my guardian sister spoke this words: God's time is different with man's time. I am sorry God, for not trusting you and being worry about everything. My logical thinking dominate my faith to You. I know Your plan is the best, and now I want to surrender all my life to You.
Sometimes I still cannot believe that I am now physically weaker. but let's keep in faith that there's a rainbow after these stormy days, right? I believe someday I can back as normal, as fit as ever.
People mock me because I given up my job to follow my father's command. They discourage me to be a state-employee. but this is the path that I chose, I have to believe in myself, because if I don't, who will?
FIGHTING!
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