Postpone?

This night, when I had my dinner with my boyfriend, Iot, in a small food stall near campus. It was rain heavily, and we both have no umbrella to go out. So we just wait and have a chat.

chat, yes a chat. but later on, it comes to a serious discussion about our relationship. well, i don't think it's necessary to tell the details, but at one point we think that it's better for us to postpone our relationship. In other words, we change our status as friends,,,hem maybe closed friends.

I don't know why but I don't feel comfort if I am forced to do that. I, somehow, feel both sad and lonely. So I tell the truth, and he also said the same. When I asked him if he also feel the same way, why he want me to postpone? he said its because he didn't want to make me paralyzed, feel like being caged and not free because of him, he said he honestly will be so sad if the ending is the postpone.

The final decision is, we back to normal, as usual, me as his girlfriend. I think for this time this is the best decision for us. I hope we will long last.

Love u Bang Iot :)

I look to You--Whitney Houston

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Pze_mdbOK8

I look to you--My Motivational Song

Whitney Houston songs' are never bad! I love all songs brought by her.
Especially for this occassion, I really like the song "I Look to You"
"You" here means God, Jesus Christ.
I don't know why, when i am down, when I have to many burden, when I feel pain, trying to push my stress down and it comes to fail, if I listen to this song, I feel relieved. Sometimes it makes my tears automatically fall down. I feel that I'm not alone, God always be with me. God always in my side and never let me standing without His hand holding me. I feel HE talk to me using this sing. "I look to you, Santi. So don't look anywhere, don't look your pain, look Me...."

Here is the lyric:
I Look to You

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I'm lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I've been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

About to lose my breath
There's no more fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm gonna make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you
I look to you
And when all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

My levee's have broken, my walls have come
Crumbling down on me
The rain is falling, defeat is calling
I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle
I need you, shine on me

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength has gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

I look to you
I look to you

Bandung Hari Ini

You know guys, kota bandung hari ini sangat nyebelin. Dimana-mana macet. ergh.

Kenapa bisa macet? Penyebabnya ada banyak ternyata:

1. Wisuda Unikom di Sabuga

2. Weekend, pasti distro2 dago laris, jalan DU-Riau padat

3. Ada acara yamaha apa gitu sesuatu di Gasibu

4. Konser sesuatu di siliwangi

dll yang gue bingung kok macet banget.

Tapi ga separah waktu Pasar Seni sih, yang jalan udah kaya tempat parkir. Super macet, ampe mau jalan kaki aja susah. hahahaa.

tapi untungnya saya malam mingguan di kost, ahey. Bebas macet, bebas stres :)

ada asiknya juga ya weekend kagak jalan, hehehhe

I Miss My Old Times

Ah! I simply miss my old time when I spent my leisure time with my laptop, browsing anywhere and fulfil this blog with my random writing.
When minutes ago i open this site and see my blog, I found out how i miss writing so much. I miss the way i satisfied when people like my writing, I miss the way I satisfied when I've just finished my writing and clik "publish" button.
Besides, I also realized, time runs sooooo fast. months ago i didn't even check this blog. I was busy with my activities, college, relationship, friends, meetings, and tasks...But now I am enjoying my saturday night, alone with my laptop and coffee and cake, in my messy room. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, so relaxing.
I made a promise with myself to write every saturday. Please remind me, guys :)